Do you really realize who you’re dealing with? Do you know how strong I am? I don’t think you know me very well, and I am going to show you who I am now and who I can be by taking one more step. Then I will take two steps, then three, and I will walk, walk the straight and narrow pathy whether you like it or not.

I may be innocent but I have seen. I stepped across and I liked what I saw, but I was tresspassing. I like it here more, comfortably numb, ignorant and dumb, and I am going to stay here, on this side of the line, for the rest of my life.

Another chance? Yes please, give me another chance and I will show you what I can do.

Gifts, what matters? what really matters?

What seems to matter to us the most, very often if not most of the time really isn’t as important as we think it is at that time, and if we can only let go of the formed perception we have grown so attached to for so long…. We’ll do ourselves a huge favor, and we will grow… there really is no limit. The little things in life matter the most, and they are very often the hardest notice, to see, to spot, to grab, to analyze, to identify, to pick up and use it to grow, to evolve, to reach out and make a change in the world…. We really need to take a closer look at our definition of reality, and I think it’s a very personal and unique thing.

There are forces trying to stop me from doing this, but I’m stubborn and I am doing it anyway, regardless of consequences, I can not be silenced. I have  a unique talent, a gift, and what I have to do to process this is to let it all just flow, there are no boundaries or borders once you open the gate it’s all right there in front of you, In your face, and it makes sense, it really does, and this is who I am and this me and I know this because I see it right now in front of me as I am typing, this overwhelming feeling is grasping me from the inside, turning my soul into something … all I can do is write, because once it is written it is a fact. It happened. And I am telling you to be careful to take care of your  belongings and choose carefully, because it is an important step that you are about to make. Who I am, yes, it’s who I am, I am trying to find myself, and in the end, I think it’s really kind of worth it, if you all would just listen to me. I’m just documenting what I see in front of my eyes that is all. I observe, and I write down what I see… that is my task….

Reality is more complicated than you think, really

What seems to matter to us the most, very often if not most of the time really isn’t as important as we think it is at that time, and if we can only let go of the formed perception we have grown so attached to for so long…. We’ll do ourselves a huge favor, and we will grow… there really is no limit. The little things in life matter the most, and they are very often the hardest notice, to see, to spot, to grab, to analyze, to identify, to pick up and use it to grow, to evolve, to reach out and make a change in the world…. We really need to take a closer look at our definition of reality, and I think it’s a very personal and unique thing.

There is some kind of twist going on here, I think… Some kind of twist of our perception of realiI also found out that “time” really doesn’t matter as much as we think it does. A good advice to follow here on earth: Let go of time. It’s a hard thing to do, i know. But try.

It’s not easy to be human, i just realized that right now. And I also think that I will never quite grasp it all… I will never understand everything, and I really shouldn’t be trying to understand everything in the first place, because it will make me go mad… it’s like chasing some invisible shadow that is not there. I don’t get it all, and that’s OK, isn’t it?

Cucumbers and I have something in common, but I will not waste time trying to explain it to you, as you will never fully understand, and that’s OK, you are still a good person, I’m just a little bit smarter than you, nobody’s perfect, I wouldn’t worry about what other people think, you deserve to be treated with respect! You deserve LOVE!  I think you should express yourself, and I think the world needs to know how awesome you are! Tell them you rock and drop my name, they’ll know what to do…

If I get in trouble for thinking and expressing how i feel, then I think it’s worth it.

Plus, it doesn’t matter anyway, I think I forgot how to lie, really, I just can’t do it for some reason, maybe i just don’t want to, but then that goes into kind of another dimension and I don’t know if i’m, you know what I mean? Like am I really doing it, you know? Or can you give me some tips on how to go from here and what to do? Because I can’t breathe, it seems, or there is something else going on but I would really like to know how long this stuff is gonna last, because it’s hard, harder than I think, and I think trouble is coming and I can see it very clearly, and it frightens me, so what can I do and I know I should stop, and this all is really very interesting, but really in a way i’m thinking to myself, “really?” you know what I mean, but then I guess you do because you lead me here and i know I fell and you had to pick me up, and don’t think I don’t appreciate it, and I know that I really owe you one, right? Or what do you think? I know, I know, and I can feel it, but it’s not as strong as it used to, which is really kind of interesting, and I can’t believe how strong it was before, it really had a grip on me, i swear, and it’s really kind of interesting how i figured out a way to beat it, and i can still feal it tearing through my body with all it’s sharp claws, pulling me under, giving me all it’s got, but i can fight it for some reason which really kind of makes me happy in a way, you know, because i wasn’t always able, you know, and i don’t know why i can do it now, which is really kind of weird,  but it really makes me happy, you know, i’m so confused, but thank you i have to go!

Is it really true, is it truely real? Because it makes sense now, it really does, and I guess I never will be quite sure if it’s all real or if its just in our heads…. because it feels like you kind of see things from a place that is very beyond what we’re supposed to see, you know, like we’re not really meant to do this and then it’s just up to us to question it and stuff i won’t go into more detail on that

You know what I mean right? Because I have a feeling you do, it’s just
right there, laying on the table in front of you and you don’t see it
because you’re focused somewhere else, you know? And this is me!

Hi,
and “Hello” if you will, for I rememember this place and it’s way beyond what they
call love, right now i’m one step up and with you it’s crazy, it’s pretty and it’s OK with me, you see? I’ve never been one step up as far as I have with you that’s for sure, does it make sense?

Like a beautiful chemical that takes over and overwhelms you…. you’re not mine, but tell me what’s the crime, go ahead and cross the line

No matter what the world says, no matter how crazy I look, no matter how unimportant it all seems, no matter what you think of me, of us, I’m telling you… it’s worth it, it makes me happy, it shapes me, like a song… I feel in tune with reality and that’s what matters isn’t it?

there is an eternit’s not art, it’s the truth told pure and gently rubbed in your face, a way you can understand, as a tool for me to use to express myself, that’s about it

I think you should live for the moment. But after that I doubt I’ll think so.

sometimes, you have to pull the curtains and let the sunshine in….

ipads are for idiots who finally learned how to use their iPod

I AM TURNING BUTTER BY THE DAY. YEAH, BUTTER, I AM TURNING IT, BY THE DAY.I WANT A GARDEN

you are the cutest prettiest happiest best example of a beautiful person there is and i absolutely love you to bits and i’m so happy you are my friend, I enjoy looking at your face!

Your plump pouty lips are sexually provocative

 a perfect circular shape

  perfect teetjhI really hope you are doing wonderful, you and your absolutely beautiful hair!

al battle going on and the mitocondria needs to be protected, why didn’t I figure this out earlier??!!!1

I swear, starting right now, i’m brushing my teeth every single day for the rest of my life. you should see some of the things that live in your mouth, i swear…….brush your teeth, just trust me on this one guys

The first piece of puzzle,
of my hour,
and a second will fit our day,
a shining pebble, beautiful gem,
in my palm i am holding,
holding on to a memory i’m losing..
and a bitter and oh-so-sweet,
faded hues,
the skies, a golden reddish auburn,
it makes me run away
the sun,
I don’t want you to leave me here alone…
thinking thoughts, it isn’t helping…
the shadows of the evening,
fast approaching me as I sit
staring up at all the stars,
and the heavens up above,
I sometimes really wonder,
I sometimes really hope,
a hope for something better,
a far and distant world
where I’ll have just a  fraction of a purpose
a point in being and existing,
and perhaps a friend, or even two,
if it’s not too much to ask for,
I’d really really like that,
but for now I’ll have to sit and wait,
for that day to come to me..
I just hope this all is worth it…

Reflexology, exploitation, authentication; it was an explicit demonstration of injustice and impediment. The inevitable voice of elder Johnson suddenly erupted with the glory and magnificence of a thousand galaxies. “Observe! For it shall happen in twenty-one days!” My fingers are fluttering with anticipation! The mere notion of seeing you makes my membrane quiver and pulsate wildly. Your alluring eyes adulate me in ways that is incommunicable. Your fulfilling smile is like a torch in a world of insanity. Your veneration, your enthrallment, how can you say it isn’t so?! She was nothing more than a snowflake; unique, beautiful, and multifarious at first, and like all the other snowflakes she melted away when I showed her my heart. I knew it would happen from the start, I didn’t care. Behold, for I am the sunshine master and commander-in-chief! My inane fortitude will flummox your undomesticated attitude! Hike up the kilt and call me asinine, I will not let your social democratic attitude impeach my brainpowers! We are fanatics, agnostics, and Humanitarian non-smokers seething at the baseline of idealism!

Having hid inside for many decades, Dr. Rahmathullah Irokok could no longer move rhythmically and in sync to the pumping techno music. Instead, he made a series of unpleasant and disturbing guttural noises, like a pig in a trough, suggesting flatulence or perhaps a disorientated discombobulation originating from a deeper place within. 

The spy satellites are melting, tiny golden droplet-pebbles float down from up above, thank god I packed my air bags this morning, that means I can fly, there’s no telling what would have happened if I leapt off this edge without my beloved air bags in hand. Now it’s time to to smell the the horizon, and tickle the small children, cook them rice while making them laugh, the liquid spy satellite is beaming down a powerful nano-funk, it totally makes me want to twerk it to the beats like I’m Miley’s Virus, and even though the spring hiatus punched me hard in the face and told me it’s time to think long and hard, I mainly think about my lunch or sometimes a bunch of very small tiny little baby kittens, or puppies, and i think there might be some on youtube if you hold on I will check up on that for you in a minute, and now while I can remember, the super special secret thing, I forgot that I didn’t remember I had forgotten it, but I can hear it all now, like a memorandum from the general himself, the unpremeditated response destined to become a mere footnote in the history of velveteen 80’s love songs, and I think, I think I may have accidentally smoked a large quantity of top-shelf bluegrass, but I didn’t mean to do so, the flowers underneath including some of their bi-products emitted such a powerful pine aroma, reminiscent of really awesome top grade blue grass music, I’m a die hard fanboy, ready to pounce, I just can not get enough of that sweet blue grass, but now, with this awkward and unladylike snort I shall sit down plump on the wooden floor, busy pulling blue grass from a gigantic magic top-hat, I must prepare myself, for tonight will bring yet another nifty hat-trick. ————————-> Peaches!

  I spontaneously combusted. Then a very successful Chinese based pharmaceutical company hired me and brought me to central Xifushan, Hebei, China where I currently spend most of my spare time gloating about my early retirement and my decisions about what to do with my bulging 401(k).

This is the new me, and your rudeness and disrespect for my vast wealth and great success is nothing short of deplorable. Would someone less sure of himself be able to be quite so (dumb) loud?

Please, sir, i really must ask of you, not to shout so loudly in my ear canal, i can hear you perfectly fine, and i’m sorry that i can’t help you , but good luck on that… thing you do, and say hi to the family for me, k? Have a nice day.

Seasons Greetings,

Dear Friendly Japanese Businesswoman,

West side of the business

Silver 1 Copy 1

I wish upon you a sincere and Cheerful  fatherly break of day,

indubitably without further ado, be sure to keep moistness absent.

Hail the King of Norway, the sound of integrity may be part of your

daily go bouts, and may the sun luster ever so joyfully upon your

compassionate façade.

I trust that our assortment inhibits the local welfare, and  will

continue to thrive and multiply daily.

Superfluous scripting entirely inspired by the eastern block sunshine

and master, the Slavic charm, and Microsoft Word.

Bill Gates. (Wie Geht’s )

“She got me drunk and forced me to suck her off, penetrate her, and eat her semen.”

.

GAS THE MUSLIMS

As my happy cries subsided, the sweet sticky santorum began dribbling from my distended asshole like melted mocha frappuccino. He told me that he loved me. It was only then that I realized the man that had sodomized me in a Pittsburgh bathouse was no other than The Holy Prophet Muhammed. I felt dirty. 

MUHAMMED WAS AN AUTISTIC SAVAGE WITH A RAGING BONER FOR LITTLE BOYS

MUHAMMED WAS A CLOSET WHORE AND NIGHTTIME HOMOSEXUAL,

BUT ALLAH COMMANDED HIM TO RAPE YOUNG GIRLS, SO HE MADE THAT HIS PASTIME DURING DAY.

THE HOLY PROPHET MUHAMMED DROWNED IN A SEA OF WARM GOOEY, YELLOWISH GUNKY FROTHY MIXTURE OF CUM FROM ALL THE HOMOSEXUALS SKULL FUCKING HIM

On 21 Nov 2014, at 19:25, irokok Benty <kadaovii@gmail.com> wrote:

Welcome to my face.

My name is Dr. Rahtmatullah Irokok, 

I am the fiduciary representative to your late relation Mr. Qmujujur Blastercancewek who tragically passed away on the 1st of October 2015 in a horrible automobile accident together with his 12 sister wives including their children and all other members of his  immediate family here in the Democratic Republic ofNigeria.

 Before his untimely passing, he deposited the sum of { usd$6.500,000,00 }  in a bank here in the

Republic

of Togo .  The  bank  has  mandated  my  office  to  present  his

heirs  and  beneficiary . Get  back  to  me  for  more  information

Dear sir, if you would be so kind as to provide me with a little more informative information on this tragic event as it is unfolding in front of us. I am greatly saddened and deeply concerned for the wellbeing of ownership and the current financial representation must remain in complete responsibilityness. Please inform me of further actions required and all the steps necessary for the solution to hastily appear.

Let me know if there is anything me or my company can do to help in the matter. My secretary has been told to assist you, she has been informed and instructed to be of utmost help of all kinds.

My condolences,

“She got me drunk and forced me to suck her off, penetrate her, and eat her semen.”

This music describes my meth psychosis like it’s an entity synchronized to my brain while intercepting my perceived sense of reality right in front of me, making me follow it blindly wherever it chooses to take me next without realizing I have absolutely no control….. which is kind of scary

This music really SNEAKS up and engulfs me from behind in a pretty rapey way, so at first I was screaming “NO MEANS NO!!!!!”, but then I gave up and accepted defeat, surrendering myself to its self-imposed authority. Now *All*  the 384 trillion microscopic hairs scattered around on my body are in love for the first time again, and this time it’s chemical.

I THINK YOU SHOULD CHASE DOWN YOUR TRUE NATURE, GO AHEAD SIR, DO WHAT DICKS DO BEST: BRUTALLY FUCKING RANDOM ASSHOLES ONLY BECAUSE YOU ENJOY WATCHING THEM SUFFER AND IT COMFORTS YOU IN A DARK SEXUAL WAY TO KNOW THAT THE PAIN WAS A GIFT FROM YOU FROM, A  THEIR PAIN AT YOUR HANDSEEP INSIDE  UR RAGERAWA PATH THAT IS TO GO FUCK YOURSELF THEN EVERYBODY ELSE AROUND YOU AND DONT FORGET YOUR FAMILY, GIVE IT TO THEM REALLY HARD UP THE ASS, THEY WILL BE SO PROUD OF YOU.

YOU, SIR, ARE A  DICKHEAD. Please mind the gap and think of all the starving children in africa, hell why not travel there, and personally give a nice hard butt fuck to all the starving negro children you see begging you to go slow, nice and gentle does it, sliding yourself inside and all the the way deep down in the child’s hole, and that involves learning how to live your true nature, in unity with your heart, that’s simply a fact my brother, and also some damn good advice because i truly care.